Reincarnation
Growing up in a " christian" home we were told what to do ,how to do it, when, what to believe and not to believe, but as we get older and wiser you realize that everything that you were taught and to believe in is an illusion, which brings me to "Reincarnation"
Never believed in reincarnation till I was about 52 yrs. Old, one day my grandson 3 yrs old at the time, were running and playing in my back yard and out of the blue, he stops and takes my hand, looks at me and says " Papa, you see those cars in the sky?, I said yes " no planes or anything, ke saud" drove those before I was born, WOW, later that night we were on the front porch and again, he looks at me and says, " see that planet up there? That's where I came from and where im going back to when I die,after that I started reading books about reincarnation, I am now a firm believer that when we die, our soul inhabits another body, this life is only a movie and set to replay over and over
I can relate to a point.
One side was like that, the other side was more about explore and determine for yourself. Obviously I chose the later. However, it wasn't a demand in the sense of a dictatorship. It was more an expectation of behavior. Some Christians also still accept reincarnation as a thing based on the earliest now forms of Christianity.
I researched much and learning the Bible and related concepts actually opened by range of knowledge in these matters because of so much recorded (albeit in many cases over opinionated "dogmatic" and hostile) that afforded me a better grasps on contexts.
Eventually I kept much of this to myself and continued to researched and explore in private, alone with my own thoughts, sometimes getting paper taking notes, sketching concepts visually,and so forth.
While it freed my mind on one hand, I certainly had for a long time a since of disconnect. Slowly the humor about everything kicked in giving me a sense of release to blow off steam and started better relating to others.
Even now, I still challenge, I still question, I still contemplate so much that this has become my vehicle of expression and invitation to share with others, not control them, and certainly not be controlled.
Ultimately it lead to the very motto for this Church. Embrace Logic, Humor and Absurdity and clarify the meaning thereof because most do in fact misunderstand the actual meaning and sense of the words and misapply them, especially confusing humor with absurdity or logic as pessimistic and mechanical rather than methodical.